Melancholy.

So you now how people say "Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened." & how "Time heals all wounds." Fcuk them though. Apparently I'm blogging because something drastic has happened and i know for sure time isn't going to heal this, not even what i do in the mean time can change how i will feel. I've always knew this wasn't going to be a fairy tale with a cliche happy ending from the start. I can't believe how I've always manage to put your feelings before mine considering how dominant i like to be and selfish i truly am. Although taking upon your brother's advice ive manage to transcend my selfishnish with the intent for your own sake. I know that I'm the perfect boyfriend. I know that i hurt you. And even with that, i cant do anything about it. I can never ever cheer you up when your down and with that you deserve much better which practically everyone is. I know i think alot. I know that i really love you. I know I want nobody nobody, but you. I know i want to be with you forever and ever. Although after what happened yesterday, I Dont know if you want to be with me any longer. I've been up for 42 hours and 9 of which in the cold looking forward that you would see me the next day. I've caught a fever and was heavily fatigue, but even with that i still came to Serramonte only to have my heart crushed. I know i can't say alot of things, But i know what i can say that I'll Love You Forever & Ever even if you arent by my side.

Black Friday.

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Night was gruesomely cold. Spent 9 Hours in line to achieved the 50% discount which turned out to be an epic fail. Not to mention i was dead the whole time from the previous day lacking countless hours of sleep.






Renjie





Nick?



Ended my day at Serramonte hoping to see Lareine even with the huge headache and immense coughing i had which didnt end to well. Figuring out fact from fiction is all thats going to be on my mind now.