Melancholy.

So you now how people say "Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened." & how "Time heals all wounds." Fcuk them though. Apparently I'm blogging because something drastic has happened and i know for sure time isn't going to heal this, not even what i do in the mean time can change how i will feel. I've always knew this wasn't going to be a fairy tale with a cliche happy ending from the start. I can't believe how I've always manage to put your feelings before mine considering how dominant i like to be and selfish i truly am. Although taking upon your brother's advice ive manage to transcend my selfishnish with the intent for your own sake. I know that I'm the perfect boyfriend. I know that i hurt you. And even with that, i cant do anything about it. I can never ever cheer you up when your down and with that you deserve much better which practically everyone is. I know i think alot. I know that i really love you. I know I want nobody nobody, but you. I know i want to be with you forever and ever. Although after what happened yesterday, I Dont know if you want to be with me any longer. I've been up for 42 hours and 9 of which in the cold looking forward that you would see me the next day. I've caught a fever and was heavily fatigue, but even with that i still came to Serramonte only to have my heart crushed. I know i can't say alot of things, But i know what i can say that I'll Love You Forever & Ever even if you arent by my side.