Scream Solo.

I think tomorrow I finally get to do my solo. Oh did I mention its only 1/2 credit now? -__-

I wonder why babe is making everyone write her a letter for when shes 23? I failed at my marriage surprise. I wonder why that letter made you cry?

I think the hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else. I want to stand out. Am I the only one?

I've come to realize how precious love really is. Its kinda like economics. A simple supply and demand where love is the good that everyone wants, that everyone looks for, but few will ever have it and those who do will lose themselves in it. Speaking of which I need to get my econ grades up.

"If I had to choose between breathing and loving you. I'd use my last breath to tell you I love you."

SoleXassassiN (12:03:32 AM): but being meant for each other is not true

SoleXassassiN (12:03:36 AM): u always gotta put in work

SoleXassassiN (12:03:45 AM): even if u guys are "meant" for each other

- Gabby [http://solexassassin.blogspot.com/]


1. Heartbreak
2. Eyes crying
3. Words never said again
4. Hands that won't be held
5. Mornings I'll pass her in the halls
6. Love notes, ripped & torn
7. Days a week you'll think of her
8. Sad songs a night before bed
9. Wishes that never came true
10. Years before she realizes you were the one

^^ Maybe I can use that as motivation in my solo.

I've realized I have countless reasons why I love you. Ever since that fated day you picked up my pencil, we chose to be friends, but I had no control falling in love with you. I'm sorry I'm so impatient, but doesn't that just show how much I love you? How would it be if was never eager to see you, hold you, kiss you? Maybe I'm just thinking too much. I can't sleep. I know I won't get what I want tomorrow. I need a getaway day with you.

"Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart"

Haru Haru.mp3

Number 197.

The number of my prom ticket. How ironic this is. 197 is my date of birth backwards; 791. Would this refer to prom being my death? or maybe rebirth?

"Dance was okaay, got a couple laughs."

It's impeccable to see how our only class together doesn't bring you down after such a situation. Are you trying to show me that you don't need me?

"I thought they werent with the fact that I was staying with you but apparently you thought they were."

Is this any different from what I had in mind? Even if I'm not satisfied I'm still here aren't I? Weren't they getting in the way when we we're supposed to have a worry free day, but you're always worried. It makes all my attempts futile. You're stubbornness hurts. It really does. Did I let anything get in the way even though we aren't together? Don't I still love you? What was key in this relationship? What was the whole point of this relationship? I know I'm incredibly selfish, but I know how angry you are that I'm not helping you.

"Whether you have found a solution to the problems you are dealing with or not, you need to put it all aside and spend some quality, problem-free, time together. Take a walk, go for a ride, watch a movie, or just cuddle. Remember why you chose to spend your life with the person beside you in the first place and go back to that feeling of contentment without all the reality that goes along with every relationship. Love each other completely.

You're the one that fucking broke up with me. You thought I was implying it, but did I ever say it?

Everything I said right now was completely stupid. I'm not done yet. We aren't over.

I'm sorry Reggie. [http://alterego0192.blogspot.com/]

Birds of Prey.

Shit a bird just hit me. WTH! -_-

Can someone please tell me why I'm on a sidewalk blogging through my phone on the corner of Orange CT. Why am I waiting here? I feel like forest gump.

I'm gonna wait here till my phone dies or I do, whichever comes first. Why do I think you'll pass by here? I'm so miserable that it's pitiful. Over the past 7 months I have come to accept imperfections. What I feel for you will never go away. I know she's gotten away. I want to do something. I need to do something, its just the whole Family/Friends > Me issue. I thought you said your parents would never get in the way. I never want to breakup, but I can't stand your parents getting angry at you thinking you're always with me. Besides you don't want to be with me anymore, otherwise you wouldn't let this happen. I bet your saying I'm letting it happen. That's because I have nothing to lose and you have your Family on the line. I'll Love You Forever & Ever, Always. I need you now more then ever, but its not going to happen since I'm not trying and you think I don't want you anymore. I guess humans really have just evolved to shed pointless tears. I wish you would call.

Why won't my phone just die already. I have so many note entries on my phone. This is ridiculous. Why am I here waiting?! I guess I'll just wait forever, that much hasn't changed. I should of never gave you that letter. If I know what love is, it's because of you.

From the looks of it I'm going to be on this corner till 5ish.

Sorry for the low quality phone pics.



"These letters to you
Aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping
And you're not here
The thought stops my heart"

Letters To You.mp3

You always hurt the one you love cause you couldn't get enough.

How hesistant have I become? I know I'm committed. I once learned from an episode of Boy Meets World that you may have dreams of killing that which is closest to you, your closest friends, and even yourself to achieve something more. To start a new life with the one you love. I don't want more, I want you, I need you and only you. I'll continue this later.

NVM I have nothing to say.

"In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities."

- Janos Arnay

Also something relevant to the topic you're doing babe. I still think The Great Gatsby is a terrible book.

"I love her and that's the beginning of everything."

- F. Scott Fitzgerald

Sorry for the phone pics guys.

Are these 2 the same color?



Anyways got some Aussie Fries from Outback With Gonzalo, Ramsey, Jerimiah, Jofer, & Patrick today. Then headed over to Serramonte to settle my Tux issue. I didn't even need to change it cause I think I got the Puroondy right at first, too bad babe can't come along and make sure. After that headed back to school and met up with Chris, John, & Joseph to follow them to serramonte again so Chris could get his Tux. Although this time I got something. Not pictured, but I thought this was cute.

Jerimiah I need my USB! T___T



"Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare

Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me.... "

Let Me Love You.mp3

Puroondy?

Babe is this the purple, maroon, burgundy you spoke off?




Anyways had a nice day with babe today. Went to school and spent some time with babe. Got Picked up by Gonzalo & Ronald, then went to Serramonte to get my Tux with Ramsey and them. I put a $20 down payment, now I just need to pay off the other $98.40

Shit I need my USB from Jerimiah. I can't get my pictures from my camera! T__T

To Do
- Practice Solo [Don't forget phone adapter]
- Be a good life partner
- Come up with $208.40 for prom
- Get star account
- Get a cookie from Mrs. Fields with a monkey on it asking Lareine to prom [Might not happen, but the thought exist]

Where is my rose?

Its 5:04PM and I haven't gotten out of bed yet.

"Where's my effort?"

So I decided not to use Wenz's [Wak3/illuzionist.blogspot.com/] Midnight on The Bay as my song for my solo. Instead I came up with a Mix from the Karaoke version of Troy - Scream.

"I don't know where to go
What's the right team
I want my own thing
So bad I'm gonna scream
I can't chose, so confused"

I think Prom is a week from now, I don't have my tux nor my ticket. Not to mention I need to come up with $80 for the partybus there.

Things I might consider for sale
- 1st Gen 60gig PS3 w/one controller [$315]
- NDS Azure/Sea Crystal Blazers 9 [$70]
- Khaki Gold/Black Stripe Chrome Mini Metro Bag [$85]

-White G-Shock Glide [$65]

I'm so confused about love now.

"Whether you have found a solution to the problems you are dealing with or not, you need to put it all aside and spend some quality, problem-free, time together. Take a walk, go for a ride, watch a movie, or just cuddle. Remember why you chose to spend your life with the person beside you in the first place and go back to that feeling of contentment without all the reality that goes along with every relationship. Love each other completely.

Why do I cherish photos so much? Why do I bother being a TA in a photo class where nobody gives a fuck about photography? Why did I stop shooting in Raw and move to S? Why do I love photography?

Anyways stay tuned to get an update from the pictures in my 400D. I'm leaning towards a D90 now; Fcuk Wenz

"Look at my nose." -__-

WTF did Jerimiah take my only usb cord for my camera?

Note: Get PS3 back from Jerimiah

via iPhone

"Now that I put it all together
Give me the chance to make you see
Have you used up all the love in your heart
Nothing left for me, ain't there nothing left for me"

Baby Come Back.mp3

via iPhone

So this is my first entry directly from my phone and it certainly will be one I won't forget anytime soon. My Internet is down and it took me 30mins to figure out why the touch interface on my phone wouldn't let me blog. I'm already way too aggravated to blog, it's freaking 1:51am. I can barely keep my eye lids open. I'll make this entry short and simple.

Dear Babe,
Can you believe it's been 214 days since I asked you out, actually 215 if you count the day I originally had intended. Unfortunately you just thought I was asking you to a cliché date. A lot happened since then. Sorry I'm not sleeping early again, I'm gaining weight and getting barrages of zits. Jeez I'm beat, I'm typing with only one eye open right now O_-

Exactly one hour ago I read your blog. Why didn't you tell me your mom read it? Something I didn't need to know? Babe I'm really sad that you would break up with me cause of smoking, I wonder how many other reasons there are. I'm beyond sad. I need you right now. Babe I Love You!

I can barely keep my eyes opening right now.

Lareine I promise you that everything will be fine. I really can't stay awake. I'll finish this later, I don't even have time to blog about my day. I need you more then ever.


Reminder:

- Be good enough for Lareine
- Tux and Ride to Prom Issue
- My Story for Yearbook
- City College
- Dance Solo to Scream
- Econ Test/Mag
- Socratic Seminar

Dawg.

I need a dog.



http://www.puppyfind.com/view_listing/?list_id=j21t4q3cze&back=%2Ffor_sale%2F%3Fbreed_id%3D146%26country%3D248%26state%3DCA%26page%3D2%26order_by%3Dfemale%26back%3D%252Fbreed%252F%253Fbreed_id%253D146%2526back%253D%25252Fbreed_match%25252F%25253Fbsize%25253Ds%252526upkeep%25253D%252526purpose%25253D%252526page%25253D2&sid=df7166625f63a26eb974234de02dc185

2 days off.

Impossible.

Why can't I seem to find the time to vent. 7 months tomorrow, why do I feel that your parents will demolish us? Why do I have to go so far, so stupidly far; point of no return. Can't I find that delicate balance? I can't believe how terrible your friends judge me when I'm the one giving it 108%

I have so many questions. What's generally best in life? How can parents be so cruel? What gets in between us in my life? How did I play you? What are they protecting you from? Aren't you 16? Why can't we enjoy our teenage years? Am I alone? How can they say such things when it isn't true? Is anger truth? Whats with the epidemic of dominance and protection causing a new Black Plague? Why do you do this? Why am I 600 text over my Limit? Hows our 7 months tomorrow? Why don't you call? Why can't I call? Why do I wait? Why do I say these knowing the risk of you breaking it off? Can't your parents accept us? Why won't they let you live? What kind of parents do I have? What am I? Am I worth the risk? Why can't God give me a break?!

My nose just started bleeding, I need a get away day with you, never going to happen though. I need to accept these nevers.

Am I tired of waiting or am I tired of you leaving me? I'm going to die. Please don't ever forget that it is worth it.

I'm tired of this fking house, my fking life. I need to move out.

Scream.mp3

6:31

I'm too stressed. I need a real post one of these days.

New Header in Progress.



SOL

Time, Love, Experience, & Liberty.

This topic is endless, I've become lazy.

I'll update later.

06-09 Recap

I feel as if I've been gone for weeks. Bad idea to tag my pictures in my state. Let the pictures speak for themselves.



James Birthday at Moonstar
















:O






4 Red Bulls = 4 Hour Drive to Santa Barbara



Santa Barbara Sucks.




LOL




Motel Fail


Ride Back Home




[I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives]

Holiday.mp3

Semi Auto Pen Fail Summit

Ugh so lazy to update my blog from Friday.

A lot more pictures to come from Monday - Wednesday.

I'll probably upload the videos from today eventually.

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Met up with Janel, Christene, & Karl at Balboa Park


What I brought to the Summit


Kick [Karl & Nick] Cute? >.>


$200 Flannel? O.o


You mad?


I spy. .




Manatee




Verizon


Fail


Ronald?


Jed


:O






This dick.


Death


Headed to IHOP after to see Lareine. <4

Update

Dunksrnice.net













[Go Leo! It's your birthday (hey)
Go Virgo! It's your birthday (hey)]

Booty Music.mp3