Winnie the Pooh at Serramonte

So today there was like some kind of huge collectible trade convention at Serramonte.

>___>

5 Days.

I don't know how I lived without this phone though.

Schools coming to a closure.

Notes
- Dance Final
- Hella Poems
- Econ Project
- Gab's Yearbook



Seems like it was just yesterday that you picked up my pencil. A lot has changed since then, my hair for example. I don't see why your mom called me Goku though. I still remember when you gave me those white chocolate kisses; my favorite. Everythings been so unpredictable, It's remarkable how inseparable we've become. I can't blog for beans right now, I better end it here before you get cranky on the phone.

Tai

= Red Snapper

Ugh what a day. I couldn't make it to Fanime yet again today. I hope Wenz [http://illuzionist.blogspot.com/] got me a plush pokeball though >___>

Anyways sorry I had to flake on you Gab [http://solexassassin.blogspot.com/], but I was preoccupied with a job opening. Treat me out though brooo! LMAO.

Happy 8 months babe! This needs its own blog entry so I'll continue it on later.

Friday was dope. Word to Jofer and his BBQ.

I need to get my camera back from James [http://jamesgotpencils.blogspot.com/] and my freaking PS3 from Jerimiah! -___-

Highlights
- $.88 Sodas turned into non generics
- Pwned Johnel, Gonzalo, Stelio, Mary, and Steven in pool
- Ryan's Palabok <3
- PS I Love You = Stupid
- Janga FTW



Ramsey's Bucket


"My teas gone cold I'm wondering why i..
Got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
And I cant see at all
And even if I could it'll all be gray,
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that its not so bad,
Its not so bad"

Stan.mp3

Socks.

I need to go sock shopping with babe.

Last Night was dope.

Stopped by Stow Lake, Twin Peaks then Overpass. Too lazy to go into detail, so just enjoy these 2 pictures.

Corn Pops.

I'm still far from myself and that person I need to be.

I'm always losing my train of thought and just bsing everything from there.

Where you are is where I need to be, but its as if there's some electromagnetic field repelling this steel wall in between my heart.

It was such a good day too. I'll get more to that later.

I ended it because I couldn't stand the barrage of pain we shoot occasionally towards one another, but in the long run I'm really just hurting myself.

You've become my everything and now I have nothing.

I thought when we finally made it through your parents not letting you have a boyfriend it was all smooth sailing from there, I waited 7 months, but it happened. What am I waiting for now? Hope of having you has driven me crazy. I don't even know who I am anymore. All I know is I'm still willing to wait. Even now we're still talking. I wish you would ask me out. You took off JALFAE on your page T__T

It seems when you hold back your anger and pain, pretending to be happy it keeps you from truly loving someone. I hate hesitation. I hate being lead on. I hate how I got the same answer I got 3 months ago. I Love you, I know what we can be, but I'm far from being suitable. Why am I not your bestfriend?! That was one straw that took it too far.

When I said let's break up, I tried to look strong. I couldn't stand to show you how stupid I knew I was being, how much my heart was crying out "NOO YOU FKING IDIOT, DONT DO IT!" Instead all I could do was hold my screams as the picture of your tears from your beautiful face struck me over and over like a broken CD on repeat.

I never wanted to let you go, but you had to go again cause you would get in trouble. I had to say it for you to leave, cause I couldn't find it within me to look your parents straight in the eye after what happened. I mean even if you don't love me the way I want you to doesn't mean you don't love me with everything you have. I fail to understand that, therefore I'm not good enough. There's 2 things I want, but I can't wait patiently and that lack of being patient brings forth this alter ego of me where all I do is hurt you.

If I had to take a step with you for every moment you were in my mind we'd finally have that forever.

I wish you would take the day off school to be with me tomorrow.

I think I once heard from The Simpsons that

"He who is not impatient is not in love."

UGHHH, I still remember that letter that made you cry. I wonder if I jump from the stairs tomorrow, would you catch me? Probably not -__-

So right now what we have is Love and Pain. What if all the pain we're to disperse, then all thats left is love right? AGHH you need your own life. How can you say you want it, but not do it? -__-

Lately you've told me I started to do everything in a half ass manner. Within me I can't give you everything, I can't do great things, but I've given everything I could greatly with my love. This love has just really taken its toll on me. Now you say you're here to help, but I'm being such a jerk. Fk I hate myself. I just pushed you away.

So you know those posters they sell at blockbuster? I once saw one that said

"Destiny is the choices you make, not the risks you take"

You said you've risked everything for me. I never had anything to risk. I've given you my all, but you always said to leave it to fate. Maybe you don't notice what I've done in the past 7 months, but I've practically have been to hell and back. I can't bare to see how happy you'll be without me tomorrow. Ugh tomorrow is going to be one of days where I have a fake smile on.

Everything was fine, you hesitated because you didn't want it. Why won't you trust me? We made it this far and you're going to let your parents influence get in the way again.

I don't know anymore, you were my inspiration for my poetry towards my English finals. Now I suddenly lost my will to write. I feel as if I've fallen and can't get up. Won't you help me up?

Don't let this be a game of tennis in which I can't beat your service ace of 2 - Love (Ugh too much Prince of Tennis) >__>

I Cant Stand

Hurting You Anymore.

This is the biggest mistake in my life, but I can't take what I'm doing to you.

I LOVE YOU FOREVER & EVER.

I hope one day I'll be good enough for you.

Midnight on The Bay; 2009 Prom

So I hate dim yellow lights. Also I got so caught up in prom I didn't manage to take any pictures.

Today, I go to Mens Warehouse to complain they gave me the wrong color. When I get there the guy unzips it and ask me whats wrong. Turns out it was the right color all along.

They say I had "ANIME" hair -__-


Anyways Ramsey picked me up and drove me to babe's house to get ready for prom. Took like 5234 pictures with Babe, CONCEITED! But you did look beyond believe today, astonishing how beautiful you are. Babe's family was really nice [I still haven't blogged about meeting them for the first time this week though] Next up we finally arrive onto the hotel, looking like idiots in the process of finding the entrance line. Saw Wenz and met Katelyn.

Soo uhmm if you have butter on a knife and you use the knife to cut the bread, it apparently cleans the knife, fail! Right Babe? T__T

Food was decent. Had some shirley temples and filet mignon. Didn't get to eat the strawberry cheesecake with chocolate on the bottom though!



ZOMG so I like spent an hour in line with Babe to get our pictures taken, I herra thought when I was taking the main picture it was only the keychain picture so I didn't check to see how moded I was, but apparently now I'm expecting to recieve pictures that I don't even recall.



Clock finally struck Midnight ending a great night with babe, sorry we didn't do anything I had originally intended. "I LOVE YOU FOREVER & EVER!"

After party was dope.

Videos and pictures in progress, I'll edit it later.

ZOMG Lvl 121?! O__o

So I finally log back onto omgpop on Jofer's Laptop and look what I find!



ZOMG am I trippin?! VAL wth! :O


Anyways went with Babe and Ramsey to pick up her corsage, Handicap Place card ftw? After that I spent some time with babe at home, didn't last long though. Next up Ramsey picked me up again to meet up with Andraine, Janine, & Josel to pick up their corsages; my love, sol?
Dropped them off then headed over to Jofers, randomly called James and picked him and Marlene up on the way.

Highlights
- Beat James first round of pool
- Recorded a wild rooster loose on the streets?! [Vid in progress]

Westmoor Track and Jeffersons Little Theater is hauted?! WTH when did this happen though?

About 19 hours till prom. I miss babe, I'll blog more later; so much to do, so little time.

Confuse Ray.

I've lost my will to write.

Today, My girlfriend woke me up 4 times to go to school. Each time I thought it was only 3mins apart, but in reality she called me every 30mins. FML

Anyways, I missed out on school today, but made it on time for 5th period dance.

Dance List
- Mix beat
- Download Transformers OST
- Send Josh Virtual DJ
- Perform Dance Solo Wednesday
- Turn in Portfolio Friday

I'm on the spotlight, but it feels like all this light is illuminating nothing but a ray of confusion. I spent the whole day worrying about babe trying to cheer her up, but I failed epic. Why do I suck so much? Gabe once told me

"Don't give it your all, because there might be nothing left for you."

If you give it your all and she gives it her all then that quote is meaningless. I've given so much time and effort, but the glass is only half full or half empty.

Prom is this Saturday and I didn't finish paying off my tux, nor do I have the right color. I don't even know where to buy a Corsage.

I need help, I'm going to breakdown.

"The puzzle, the puzzle incomplete can't you see you
was all I needed
I'm sad trying to hold back, but tears rolling fast
with this pain in my past
Honestly I feel weak, well it's hard to explain but
you drive me insane "

This Letter.mp3

Sayonara Procrastination

Finally picked up some slack today. Did my yearbook work, but still currently working on my econ project.

Star Account Here I Come.

I've finally gotten around to making my video; epic fail.