Whatever.

I don't get why i cry over you. I don't understand why you do this to me. I don't know why i know ill always love you. I thought you said you loved me? I thought your definition of love was two people risking everything for each other, but you couldn't even risk a second being late? You thought i left you? Jeez do you really think that? I feel so stupid crying right now. Half the times you are with me, you aren't really. I thought when we got back together, there wouldn't be any more pointless tears, but this can't be real. Maybe I'm the one confused about love, should i just stop trying? Should i just stop anticipating so much from you? Please tell me. I'm trying my best to talk to you even when I'm so fcuking depressed, I don't even ignore you anymore i actually texted you back when i could barely grasp reality from all the tears. I'm trying so hard to make things better then they ever were and your just like "Whatever."